"I am healing, slowly breathing. Finding strength in the cracks of my soul. I am rising, not just surviving. Letting go of what I can't control. Step by step my heart is revealing; I am healing." -Lyrics from I am Healing by Logandeep.
I have discovered gems of knowledge and resilience in the midst of suffering. Don't take me wrong, I know it is hard to see the good and the beautiful when our lenses are covered in mire and disappointments. Nevertheless, I can truthfully testify that every scar I bear, has a story -and not just a story, but a priceless moment in time that has led me to a higher place. I feel like every time I survive one of life's attacks, I get push up a little higher than where I was before.
I can say this with certainty, every level has its own grief; it's own pain, and we can expect a tough fight. I have always said that suffering is the one thing we can be sure will not skip us. I don't know about you, but I am finding strength with each struggle I overcome. And that's the thing, I have to overcome if I want to level up.
Sometimes I feel like the heroine in one of those video games my sons play. I am desperately trying to survive with whatever weapons I can find along the way. Not just the weapons but the potions, medicine, money, strangers with mysterious messages, and secret passages; it all serves a purpose.
Life is like that. It is filled with tons of flying darts, bullets, and arrows, and it is our job to shield ourselves from them, while fighting our way through each attack. And so, today, I want to tell you that you will most likely get hurt with each fight. You might feel alone in the battle, and wounded beyond hope of repair. However, you are not alone, and you can be fixed, even in the fiercest battle.
That is healing! knowing you cannot control the situation you are in, and still fighting with all your might to get to where you need to be, or wish to be. Stay in the fight my friend, you must experience grief and pain before embracing healing.