"Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end." - Seneca
An old friend came to visit me yesterday. We had not seen each other for over 5-6 years, and it was a long overdue meeting. We ate together and laughed out loud reminiscing about the past. We also shed tears about the unfortunate changes in our lives, from lifestyles to re-location, to broken marriages, and grown children. There was no judging or hateful talk, just simple grace, and loads of compassion for where we’ve been and where we are now.
As I waved her goodbye, I remember thinking to myself; “I wish every encounter I have with those who know me would be this warm and encouraging…” I am not naïve though; I know well that an encounter like this is unique, and I should treasure it. You see, the idea of starting fresh is daunting for someone who had a beautiful and memorable beginning only to see it crash and end abruptly. One must navigate through guilt, shame, and feelings of worthlessness to eventually find peace and acceptance, and that is just the tip of the iceberg.
The last six years of my life have been like a huge and scary roller coaster. COVID came, and with it came the end of my marriage, and the end of a beautiful ministry I had given everything to. I also suffered the loss of my dear mother, and soon after, I lost wo more close relatives. I remember on one of my many sleepless nights, thinking to myself, “God, I have lost so much, how is it that I am still around?” I’m not joking, I honestly could not wrap my hands around the work of Grace in my own life. I was conflicted, and full of questions, but always willing to continue my chase for life.
Although suffering is intertwined with every chapter of our lives, a fresh start is a way to recharge and move forward. My friend resolved to move to another part of the world, and start fresh with her children, while I moved to the countryside and am trying to re-invent myself and my brand. For some of us pursuing a new beginning requires that we step on the carcass of what was and use it as a steppingstone for a better tomorrow. I know I am not the only one facing devastating changes in her life, however, I am curious to hear how you have dealt with your new beginning…my dear friend, How are you moving forward?